President of the SWC (Super Weirdo Club)
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Saturday, May 07, 2005
It really is great! *smiles* Had our second JT Meeting yesterday, i'm really loving every mintue of it. I look forward to fridays everyday. A time where we can all gather and Praise the Wonderful God. You are My All, Lord God, Saviour of My Soul. What would i be without Christ? Nothing at all. He's something that i live for everyday, and you just can't get enough of it, ever.
I wish to bridge the gap between us. I can't stand the thought of you straying away. I want you to know the love and care i have for you. Would you stop running away? When can i ever learn to love your flaws? You've been seeking that relation from me but i shut you away. I am so sorry, could we start that again? I never wanted it to be this way. You see, there's this communication gap within and i just do not know how to reach you. I see you everyday yet i don't know you. I wanted so much to talk to you, but words doesn't seem to fill it up. i'm so sorry, could we start it up again?
I thank you Lord for the wonderful friends that you have blessed me among with. I praise you oh Lord, because i know nothing is ever impossible for you. I love you all the same and i pray that you fill me up everyday every mintue of my life i don't ever want your pressence to go away. Don't let me go Lord. I thank you for this brand new life, for the fresh new start, and i put Li Ting unto you Lord. Things that i shouldn't have done, i shouldn't have shut her out. Lord you know our deepest emotion, out fears, and i pray that i can break free from mine, i pray that Lord the communication between us can improve i pray that Lord Jesus Li Ting would come for the next JT Meeting. I put my trust in you Lord because i know that you are faithful to your promises. Amen, for that leap of faith.
Child of the King,
beck.
Posted at 10:32 am by Konked-Out
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Sunday, May 01, 2005
*ARIGH* i'm currently listening to Acceptance's full album now, so that explains that outburst just now. :> MuaHaHa *BEAMING SO GREATLY* did i mention that they are SO GOOD?? Muahaha. i'm really in a good mood. Had JT last friday and it toally full blast on moi. i thought we had to forsake that meeting again. sheesh. yes yes, i shall believe in the Lord more, ask of him and he shall giveth it unto you. Where can you ever find another love like that? Jeez. OMG!! Acceptance is SO GOOD!! i just can't believe myself. MUAHAHAHA!!! WA HA HA HA HA HA!! They are SO GREAT!! did i even mention that? i just can't stop!! WA HA HA HA HA!! i'm really happy. well, for a sunday, i'm back home really early. 2nd sis's out ta Batam, which equals to NO TUITION!! MUA HA HA, another reason to be fantastically happy!! WA HA HA HA!! :> was suppose to wait in church fer dad to drive us home, but Nad said to maybe go out and study together, oh but, til now, still no sound from her, you were suppose to call me okay.. well, nevermind, i'm having Acceptance right into my ear, so Nad, you're forgiven.. HA! *anything else ta up to date to?* nope! nuthing. 'cept that examinations are just round the corner, ain't helping, from the fact that, i'm on the net right now, and not studying, ha..should really get off the com already, wouldn't want my parents to see my position in front of the com, shouldn't betray that piece of trust they have placed on moi.. so..yeapo! ta!
Jesus LOVE ME and YOU!!!
beck loving Acceptance as ever,
beck
Posted at 01:51 pm by Konked-Out
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Sunday, April 24, 2005
Acceptance, Athlete, Aqualung, Coldplay, Mae, Michael Buble, Oasis
(updating soon)
Posted at 06:46 pm by Konked-Out
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
suddenly i just felt so physically alone. i know spiritually i'd never be. but i am human nonetheless. i'd be quite alone for some while to come. nobody's gonna come home any sooner. 2nd sis's at the hostel. i'm at home. 1st sis's at China. i'm at home. Mom and Dad are in Taiwan. i'm at home. i'm at home. it's just this sudden feeling that grabbed at me at that one second after searching for more new bands and decided to switch off the computer, that one second fo looking around the house for that one second i felt alone, physically. even music for that one second couldn't masked that lonliness for a while. i figured it'll be better that i wrote it all down here, but now i'm afraid that it won't. will it? it will. somehow it already is gone, but somehow, there's still a wee bit of stains that it left.
what's left of me is fine,
beck, driving away leaving it all behind.
Posted at 05:13 pm by Konked-Out
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YES!! i have found out another band or bands, judging from the fact that i just found out another one.. heh heh.. lovely lovely day it is. FIRST UP!! MAE!!!! OOHMIGOOSH!!! how can you NOT love 'em? sheeshman, they are SO GOOD!! i LOVE 'em now, of course, Acceptance can never be eliminated from my list, now, Mae has automatically sprung up to spot number two(!!) oh yes and not to forget, heh seems to me it's already so long, but Don't Look Down another band worth charting up the list, it'll be at spot number three. yeap! these are the bands that are rocking my life currently, you'll see... oh and yes, about the band that i just found out, Anberlin, they are cool too..it's a fight between them and Don't Look Down..but judging from the fact that i found out Don't Look Down first, Anberlin's gonna be at spot number four, don't ask me why this is so, but that's the only kinda logical reason that i could come up with now. heh! you see these are the only things that are interesting in my life right now, not exactly exciting, but enough to make me BEAM like..SUN, when these bands are in my life..heh heh.
Loving music as ever forever,
beck. Peace Out.
*personal note*
Nad(?): er..ours? hmm.. jeez, i dunno man. we gotta like finish our education first dude.. which is like *urgh* (??!!) oh well, sheesh, i really don't know man, piorities might change, but of course my love for music will never change but that aspect of thee future job, but of course i'd die to have a band job, but oh well, we'll see.. maybe we could have a double life. day, we'd be at out so-called money incoming job, and during the night, we'd go to local pubs and rock it out, ya know? oh well, we'll see.. :>
Posted at 04:35 pm by Konked-Out
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
I am absolutely addicted to Acceptance, you just can't get enough of them. i HAVE to at LEAST listen to them for more than once can i keep myself sane. ha. Well, and of course i am listening to them now, through the net, Thank GOD for this too again.. :> ha. Well, i logged on 'cause i wanted to say something about Choir today. It was really cool that Mr Thomas Manheart came again. heh. And on our way home, Nad and I were talking about how they could be gays. A confession i am making, i gotta say, i quite liked Mr Manheart, thought he was really good at making the Choir into Choir. Dig? well, then i started thinking, am i attracted to gay men? sheesh. Well, guess i'm just being my usual self here *Laughs*.
Well, i also want to COMPLAIN(!!!)about the hygenie of public transport. On my way home in 187, sitting beside the window, and in between the creaks of the window, i saw nymphs, or whatever you call for a baby croakroach. yes. i was SO DISGUSTED!! frightened too, may i say.. *URIGH* Yeck! Ohmegoosh!
Well, now that i got that over already, and so i'm here, typing this out. Yes, t-h-i-s. Once again i'd like to say that, ACCEPTANCE ROCKS BIG TIME!!
Acceptance Rocking as EVER,
Rebecca
Posted at 07:11 pm by Konked-Out
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Monday, March 28, 2005
I have ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY fallen in love with Acceptance. yes i have. *ahhhh* *smiles sweetly* have fallen in love at first heard. *Ahhhhh* *smiles sweetly again* I Can't wait til Phatoms is out, i am SO gonna get it. They have taken the place of Micheal Buble, definately. *smiling sweetly*. Dishwalla's COOL!! DUDE!!! I really hope HMV sells their cds As for Micheal Buble..think he's gonna have to wait..heh! i'm thinking Keane's cool too. :> *you can guess what already* Gavin Degraw's Cool too. ARIGH!!!!
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!! I WANT THEM ALL!!!!!
You JUST CANNOT deny GOOD MUSIC. I mean, life would be so damn boring if it weren't for them. Jeez! Thank GOD for MUSIC!! Halleujah!! *BEAMS!!* Cogualting the list...
1. Acceptance - Phatoms
2. Dishwalla - Dishwalla (2005)
3. Gavin Degraw - Chariot
4. Kyo - Le Chemin
5. Daimen Rice - O
6.Keane - Hopes And Fears
Currently these are the music that are "ruling" my life now.. *BEAMS WIDLY*
Ooo!! NOT forgetting Damien Rice!! yea!! He's GREAT TOO..!!
til next time, loving MUSIC all the same,
Rebecca.
Posted at 05:23 pm by Konked-Out
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
Well, my life is boooring thus my entries are not exactly thee most interesting thing or whatever. I long for graduation day where i'll have my diploma already and have a job i love at hand. Which , would be something in designing, preferbly arts. yes. very well then. That's just basically what's on my mind and that's what that keeps me grooving so far. yes. There's nothing to do 'cept logging on into the PC and just surf the day away. Life can be so borring at times. Well yea life ain't boring it's just how you want it to be. But hey sheesh, i'm still freakin' studyin' and what in the world can i do? 'cept studyin'.. some say a students life's the best, where you just scoot your hand out and *ker-Ching* money comes right plopping down into your hand.. I don't really like that. at all. I want to be making my own money already. Can't wait to grow up huh? Maybe it's just that cycle that everybody goes through. When you're 14 you wish to be 16 then to be 18 then going on to be 21 and you'd just wish life had stopped there. Well, unfortunately it doesn't. Oh well. What can i say? What else can i say? Sheesh.
Ps: i'm just updating for the sake of updating, sheesh, life doesn't realy get any better huh? sheesh.
Posted at 10:07 am by Konked-Out
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
An Not-Really-Much Update
Alrighty, the cats are gone, and somehow, just somehow i feel that sense of sadness and relieve. Oh bother. The balcony has been stinking for quite some time already, well i guess i could very well get use to the fact that the cats are gone, anyway they'll be coming back after my 2sis graduates. Oh, very well. Yes Yes, it's a pleasure for me to say that 4N2 is officially the WINNER!! yeap! won over 5N2. But somehow, just somehow, that same glee ain't there as when 4N2 won the semi-finals. Oh well. yes. And, Md (didn't really think that i could let that out..), yes, oh well, what can i say? very well, just this lil, i wouldn't say shock, not really surprise, but just somewhere in between, at his speech, not the content, well, the content was..well, i could rebute, yes yes, his speaking tone. The way he speaks, very malay influenced... Oh well, very well, now that i got it over and done with. *ding!* i just suddenly remembered a phrase which Jacelyn Tay in that 9pm drama serial said to Terrance Cao. " We do not have to forget the past, it is part of who we are, we can keep the memories and still move on with our lives, " something like that... yeap. well, that's not much of a update for ya huh? Oh well, Art's going pretty okay..aHh.. yes.. Choir, today was pretty good, finally we're on our way to the details, i hope everybody remembers them in the next rehearsal. yes and officially i say, we are left with only 3 more rehearsals to go before the SYF Competition. Very well, we shall work hard towards out goal. i have faith in us that we can make it. Yeap! Well, very well then, that is about all...
good-day
still pretty much the same,
Rebecca
Posted at 06:28 pm by Konked-Out
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Friday, March 18, 2005
The Need For Refreshed Hope.
OH!! ARIGH!!! URIGH!!!!! i'm getting so tired already. School holiday assignments undone(yes Nad, i know you haven't even touched it yet -_- " ). And for choir today, it literally sucked big time, but by the end, it was pretty okay..i guess. sheesh. maybe it the place, but how can that make up as an excuse? hello? we're talking about a compeitition here. Not just about the medal but also about the effort that people are putting in. it just totally rubs me OFF!! oh my goosh!! and there are people who seem so relaxed about it and just doing nothing, or so it seems. sheesh. doesn't it mean anything at all to these people. maybe i'm wrong, they are putting in effort, but hey, i'm sorry i just can't see it. and, people getting sick and all that, yeah, we can't really do anything about 'cept wait for it to heal, but hell yea you can prevent sickness yea? i mean, it's the compeitition already and you're getting sick. sore throats here and there and EVERYWHERE!!! Why in the woO0rld are you getting sore throats in the first place? is it because you've been screaming too much, or are you just plain not singing in choir, or should i put it in another way, you're not singing properly in choir, you're suppose to use your tummy power and not your throat. we might as well not enter for the compeitition. damn. it really is bad. i know me saying all these doesn't help at all, most people would put choir way below their list of piorities, but hey, still, try a better effort. it all is pretty much useless. if i say too much in choir more people would start to hate me. Not to even mention i'm not exactly everybody's favourite senoir, not that i care much of it, oh but ARIGH!!! HELL!! i don't wanna care any more. shit. crap. yell.
Throwing it all up to you GOD,
Rebecca
Posted at 03:29 pm by Konked-Out
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