President of the SWC (Super Weirdo Club)
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
ages since i've written anything on this space. i've been pretty busy. school. homework. problems. church. homework. but it's been fun. learnt something new yesterday at cell. That God knows the right time for everything. 5 phases of how God works. A dream. A decision. A delay. A dead-end. The deliverance. Whoo-hoo! i'm really encouraged by that message. then sister jiaying showed us our pledge amount, did a signature, ate two mini bread then we were outta.. Later on the way home, called back home and dad was furious.. he shouted at the phone when i was talking to my mum. sigh or what? *wa piang!* when i reached home i only also realised that 2sis wasn't home yet too.. heh. then i was thinking.. man.. my 2sis and me are gonna drive my dad crazy.. heh heh..come to think if it.. i haven't seen her for days already.. ha.. oh well.. we all grow up one day and i guess when it's our turn to become parents it'll happen to us too.. hey! i'll be having a free buffet later on.. wahaha.. gonna eat much food! man.. i love my church! NOT because of the free stuff that they give. BUT the messages that they teach me. *lovely sigh* wonderful. that's about all. hmm..hope to see bro j later on..haha..
Posted at 10:45 am by Konked-Out
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
Hohoho, school has already started and time's rushing out. I gotta grab the miliseconds and not let it slip anymore. Sigh. I just wanna get the church thing over and done with. i just really want to focus, i have never left the need to focus more than ever this year. Man, am i growing or what? ha. I really wanna do well, for the sake of showing the world that going to church being rooted into God is not, absolutely not, wasting time but increasing the blessings that you get everyday.!. Can't imagine one who still does not know the Gospel, that's why i'm really trying, i want to be able to bear fruits for God. Amen. Tml, will be clarificaiton day. Hmm. 'N's this year. Gonna give my all. Vertical Horizon is good. So are Mae and Acceptance. I'm gonna ask my parents for these two CDs after 'N's. yeap. One of the reasons why i am also trying so hard. heh. going out. bye. peace out. god bless.
Posted at 11:16 pm by Konked-Out
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
fa la la la la la
ne ne pu ne ne
Posted at 09:55 pm by Konked-Out
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
what is it that you're doing? that goodbye did it really meant to mean what it meant, to us? I can never question why things became the present. I can never answer for the future. it's just this being that is there which both of us are afraid to fight, together. there is this sense of longing to be back but I know that we will eventually be. but there is this sense of fear that this continues and eventually breaks. this may and may not. this i fear and dread. this i seriously hope will never come.
Posted at 05:35 pm by Konked-Out
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
I'm Sick. Darn. Doesn't help when I've been trying my darnest best to bring friends to the BBQ. Now I'm not even sure if I myself can attend it. Darn. I really want to go. Aww man, just the though of chicken wings to eat. Yum! Delicious! haha. But then again, I'm also not sure if I am able to bring friends along at all. Darn. Never mind, I'll just keep trying. I BIND YOU IN JESUS' NAME, NOW GET LOST, DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS!!! There. Done. Oh, but I'm feeling a whole lot better already. Don't think I'm having that fever anymore. Whoa~ talking about that, that's the highest fever temp. I've ever had in my life up til now. 39.6 degrees, nearing 40 man! Sheesh. Exhaustion is the cause, or as they say? I don't know. I mean..I don't feel tired or anything actually. Darn. Hopefully my mum and dad will still let me go to church, my church CHC and not go to their's. Darn. I seriously hope that they'd understand. Darn. I can't explain how much I hope that they'd understand. Sigh. I had to take an injection and I got a shock out of it. Ha. Quite funny actually. I just got frightened all of a sudden. heh heh, i cried. ha. Doc put the needle in me and actually it was fine, jus a little pain. Here comes the exciting part. heh heh, or so called. I fainted. ha. Funny? heh heh.. seems to me. 1sis said maybe i got post-injection shock. haha, like post-natal sorta thing. haha. I was feeling terrible by the way. Well, it wasn't the first time that i had this kind of experiences. Third forth time i would say already. Sigh. Oh well, I am only human. Ahh..too lazy to type it all out. But i want to say, that my family's really weird..? Darn. I was feeling terrible and my mum was sorta laughing at me, at my reaction when i gain my consciousness back. Darn. Oh well, judging from the fact I had actually been in an operation before, mum expected me to be stronger or something. Well, sorry I'm not. Dad, just keep rubbing in on the wound. " You're exhausted lah, you're just exhausted lah, always coming home at 12, not enough rest lah." I know what he's trying to say. C'mon, he's my dad. Sheesh. But still i will not give up. I'd still go to church. You know come to think of it, if they hadn't forced me to go to their church on sunday, I would have a chance to rest. Because I'm not the least interested about it. That's the main thing that's stressing me down, a chain. Darn. Oh I really wish i can go to the BBQ.
Wanting so much,
Beck.
Posted at 08:59 am by Konked-Out
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Sunday, June 12, 2005
Do you think i should cut my hair? Darn. I'm always somehow stuck with this question. Meanwhile my hair is just tied up til i have had a decision. Decisions. Sometimes they are never approved by other people. Not to even mention that the other people you are talking about here, are your family members. Ha. Dream-busters. Pastor Kong. Funny guy. Pastor Phil. Oh C'mon! i just wanna serve Jesus. What's wrong with that? Back in that place, i don't feel my relationship with him growing or going onto the next level at all. I don't feel anything. What's wrong with feelings then? if it were, God wouldn't create 'em anyway. The right decision, you still need a lot of time to think about it. No! i'm not thinking anymore, i'm not gonna care anymore about what you're gonna say about me. I'm sorry, but i have to do it this time. Where in the world have i disgraced you by not being in the same 'house'? Darn. I'm just really gonna take that leap of faith and hold on to that. Go forth with faith. That's what you even have back at place. Darn.
Decided ALREADY!!!,
beck.
Guys. Sheesh. Take note i ain't talking about BGR here. Totally way off, though..nah..it is waaay off track. ha. Anyway i think sometimes confrontations are needed. O, stop hiding and and brace it. Darn. i'm tired of this. A, be decided and do something. C, what are you doing? make some decisions with your life first before you try and think about others? Darn. How come it's even harder than the girl issues? Darn. Only one person can help. G-O-D. period.
Darn tired,
beck.
Afterall at the end of all days we come before him and he shall be the judge. That's my piece. I don't wanna look back on days and say that i should have done this, i should have helped him/her i should have this i should have that. I don't have time for regrets. I don't have time. I only want God.
Posted at 11:04 pm by Konked-Out
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
Well, after much consideration and much of nothings-to-do, I decided to make my trip here and clean this much neglected space. Recently, though it seems like years already, I am officially a CHC member. Yes, and a whole loada things starting happening in my life. I'm busy as ever now, attending cells and services and refreshing up a whole lot. This decision didn't come for no reason. I've been dead for thirteen years and it's time to rise up again and spread the lurve. A-Ha! Yeap! Spread the Love. *smiles*
ATTENTION TO ALL!!
REUBEN MORGAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!
For those who don't know him yet, you are missing A WHOLE LOT!! Pastor has been emphasing on the Market Place a lot and it's time to take action, be a soul winner. No one is ever too young to be one. Oh and because of this, it has let me feeling down and out a little. People I invited has been rejecting me one by one. My only hope left are my little little juniors at choir. Then it came, it never fails. 2 Chron 20:15 ..Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God's. When I'm afraid, I put my trust in you. And as they say, the rest is history.
Oh and did I mention that the cats are back home? Oh sheesh and talking about that.. Cats are a bit..i would say a wee bit harder to take care of than dogs. ESpecially when you're talking about Tails and Frisbee. They are the World's Best King and Queen of Acting Cats Acadamy. Taking care of them has left me no energy. Sapped everything up. Well, actually, it has been my mum taking care of 'em. I've been out practically all days only coming back home at the eleven hours, not to even mention that my parents don't like that too. I'm out, totally. Holiday Assignments are another reason for headaches. Energy sapping things!! *hurmph!* What else can I say further? The Ns are coming here and in a rushing mode, i just got settled in CHC and the HAs are..OH! Hell. Guess I'll just have to sort my time out soon. Now if you'll excuse me, I have an appointment with Mr Shower. heh. Ta! til next entry, God Bless.
Tired but glad to be,
beck.
Posted at 09:45 pm by Konked-Out
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Tuesday, May 31, 2005
When I'm afraid, I put my trust in you.
Posted at 08:26 am by Konked-Out
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
As I drink my hot chocolate and sit myself comfortably in the computer chair, I thought of updating my recent life. Now now, where shall I start? Alright, here. Now that I've begun my new life in Jesus Christ, I gathered that it wouldn't be easy. I just passed my first "major" meander. *phew* Well, Im just really glad now that it's over and all that, but I know there'll be lots of them coming up next. I'll be ready for them 'cause I've got God on my side. Darn you bad thing(I figured that it'll dirty my blog space if I typed that four letter word out, nope, not that F-word). Ah..chocolate is good. Lovely. *smile*
JT's going strong and I sincerely hope that more people would come regularly. A piece of good news, we've found back a strayed sheep back, Grace(Love you Grace!!). We'll bring the church around the Market Place and we'll save the nation. *smile* The group's not perfect but God is, and this fellowship isn't by accident, that bad thing ain't happy about us that just absolutely why we will continue strong in this fellowship. Ah..I Love Fridays..TGIF!!!! heh heh..Love you Jesus!! *muacccccccccccks*
2sis flew to Cambodia yesterday morning. She'll be gone for a month and half, voluntaring and touring the S.E.A, lucky her *phtt*. That is equivalet to the fact that the cats will be here, well, actually forever, until the day that the cats die of course, that's about how long they'll be staying here. Yeap!! Animals are good. *smile*
I'm a feeler more than a thinker I would think..eh? Disagreement anywhere? Oh well, you know.. I can imagine Grace saying, " No no, I don't know I don't know." Oh well. I'm just really glad. Exams are over, though the Ns are not, but hey! at least, the SAs are over. *smiles* I'm still struggling with some facts in my life right now which i consider are..not good, that's why I'm struggling eh? Oh well, only I and God know what exactly I am talking about. Good day.
beck.
Posted at 10:22 pm by Konked-Out
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